I am not a writer of how to books, the ones people can crank out in 30 days. I am a process person, one who suffers through the ebbs and flows of life like most everyone else. I learned through my first book that writing new ideas to birth takes time. I always want things to happen now. My husband would tell you that I am a destination person- the one who knows life will be better when… If only… Any of you ever been there?
So I am learning to trust not only the writing process, but also the living process. I have productive days, and not so productive days, I feel good one day, and would like to stay in my pajamas and read a book the next day. I bought into the whole perfectionism thing, and this goes against being perfect, so you can imagine how difficult I can be on myself when I don’t feel like I am moving forward.
I am here to tell you to trust that you are exactly in the right place at the right time on the right path. The experiences you are having now are preparing you for whatever is next. Just like the ebb and flow of waves, this time will pass, whether it is good or not so good. We are constantly moving into a new place, even when we feel like we are standing still. The trick is to learn to love ourselves through it all. Now it is time to let go of being perfect and move into being present to your own needs, and trust that it is okay to take care of yourself.
We have to offer ourselves the gestation period. I have this funny little cartoon in my mind of a crazy pregnant woman getting mad at herself because she is only 8 months along, but she hasn’t delivered yet! We have to treat ourselves with loving kindness because I believe we are always birthing something. We may not know the gestation period, so the end may not be in sight, but with loving kindness we have to trust in our ability to bring newness to life.
When was the last time you sat in quiet, and pondered what ideas are gestating? How can you wait in joyful hope, instead of hurrying the process?