This spring, I find myself impatient in my waiting. Tulips are about to bloom and I found the hyacinth just beginning to peak through the ground where I finally removed the leaves of last year’s fall. I wait anxiously for the colors to announce that Spring has arrived, even though my allergies tell me that things are pollinating! 🙂 Usually, when Easter falls so late in the year, the flowers are in full bloom. This year, it feels as if Spring is slow in its arrival, and I don’t even live in the midwest, where winter continues to hold on and keep the ground cold.
I think my impatience is more about my own struggle to birth what is coming alive in me. I have been on a journey of discovery over the last few months, and I cannot yet put into words my experiences. I know that great things are coming as I expand and define my services.
Just like the flowers, I need the right amount of sunlight and water and warmth to bloom. So thank you for allowing me the space to reach deep inside and wait until the right time to share my insights. My blooming is about being more authentic, more transparent, in a way that allows me to help more people on life’s journey.
So in the mean time, here are some thoughts to ponder, questions I have been addressing in my own journal:
A seed must crack first through its own hard shell and then travel through the darkness of soil on its way to the light. What are the challenges you face in letting go of the shell of your life, the shell that keeps you from reaching your potential? In what ways is darkness a friend, and how does the darkness nurture your own growth?
We have to be willing to sit in the darkness, and even make friends with it, in order to see the light and to bloom into our most authentic being. Waiting to bloom, the process of becoming, is not something you can skip or rush, but rather, to embrace and learn from. Spring will come in its own time, in its own rhythm. Not everything blooms at the same time. In what ways are you impatient, trying to force your growth? What happens when you surrender and move with the flow?
“If we don’t change, we don’t grow. If we don’t grow, we aren’t really living.”